i cant deny i dont want the beauty

.Sunday, December 31, 2006 ' 12:39 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

mii & my cousin on a jungle boat .. at bangkok safari world ..

My little bro .. mii .. & my cousin at bangKok ..

My bro & i at Bangkok .. MBK shoppinjg center ..

Nice x'mas tree at e BangKOk airport ..

These r s0ME of e nice pics i took at bangkok .. i had real fun there .. as i went 2 visit my ah yee & stayed at heR h$e .. everyday my bro .. cousin .. mum & mii will take a taxi 2 places like MBK .. central .. 2 shop .. LOls .. had real fun .. buy lots of things .. walk till leg pain siax .. HAhax .. we all oso went 2 places like e safari world & dream land .. at e sarfari we sat e jungle boat .. [ quite scary .. ] drive in 2 c all e animals [eg. e lions .. tigers .. birds .. cows .. bears .. goats .. rinos .. giraffes ..] walkin beside our car .. Lols.. such a great experience .. at drean land .. we sat rides like e bumper car .. space moutain .. roller costers .. cable car etc . we spent almost e whole day there .. haha it was realy funn !!! & excitin ' !!! =D Ofcos i wana thx my ahh yee & her husband .. for bringin us 2 nice places 2 play & eat .. hees .. THX !!! = Pp

.Friday, December 29, 2006 ' 1:03 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Few days more .. is sch reopen le .. haix .. full of saddness .. sianx .. STRESS .. SCARED .. cos next year sec4 le .. o levels le .. than my study no good .. i m oso not tat kind can sit there long long .. or can absorb everyting de .. i m tat kind lazy .. cant study .. do anyting oso no gd de lorhx .. snobsnob .. during tis long long holiday .. ofcos i tell myself mus study .. but in e end .. i study a little n play alot .. i cant get myself 2 study .. my lazness still control mii in e end .. haix .. howhow!!! wat m i gona do lehx .. i m scared n wan 2 do gd in my studies .. exams .. but ''MII'' jus don let mii do it !!! idiot !!! i hate myself .. snob .. & not only studies makes mii stress .. piano too .. haix .. i failed my grade 5 .. than next year got 2 take again .. AHhHhH .. i realy don wish 2 fail .. cos it make mii feels so sad .. so pain .. so stress .. so heartbroken .. cos i hv 2 WASTE my parents MONEY !!! all tis .. i don wan 2 !!! haix .. but wat can i do .. haix .. now mii only try 2 run away frm all tis .. all tis STreES .. by usin games .. music .. tv .. never wan 2 face up 2 all tis .. haix .. i m such a loser .. useless .. haix .. no one can help mii .. no one rite .. haix .. everyday i will cry so hard be4 i sleep .. or i will try not 2 cry .. try 2 keep it .. haix .. but i know cry wont help mii .. but wat can i do ?! it realy hurts !!! so much inside .. i use 2 say i love music .. so i will take cources regarding music when i go 2 poly .. but now .. i realy don know whether i can anot .. i wan anot .. is tis e right path 2 choose ?! & go into poly .. haix .. MY MATHS !!! so poor .. so bad .. how!!! how??? everytime .. everyday i will .. cry .. pain .. stress .. etc . jus becos of all tis .. ofcos there is more problems i have .. haix .. it realy hurts thinkin of all e problems i have .. tat i have 2 face .. so sometimes i will look at my little bro .. sayin tat pls .. study hard .. don be like mii .. so bad.. useless .. STUDY HARD !!! i will always cry .. feel so so .. haix .. when sayin tat .. wat can i do 2 help myself .. how can i throw away tat lazyness .. tat stupidness in mii .. those bad things in mii .. how ? how ? everytime my marmi ask wat m i doin at hm .. i m usaly playin .. tv .. not studyin .. nor piano .. but i do study & practice alittle .. so when i m not doin wat i m suppose 2 do my mum told mii be4 tat if my o results is not gd she will punish mii .. haix .. i kn marmi .. i kn .. but euu said tat it will not help mii at all .. it will make mii more scared .. sad .. STRESS .. don kn wat 2 do .. think i m so useless .. feeling so lousy .. haix .. but ofcos i kn .. my mum is tryin 2 help mii .. she wans mii 2 do well .. so i will be ok when i go ''out'' 2 work etc. i kn my parents all cared abt mii .. i thanks them so much .. but sometimes i m realy so stress .. it is not anybody fault .. is my .. MY FAULT .. i m too .. useless .. snobsnob .. =''(

- U$eLE$$ GaL [stress .. ] -

.Saturday, December 9, 2006 ' 10:27 AM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Audition ..

Hv EuU heArd oF ti$ onLine gAME .. ?? it i$ QuitE pOPuLAr Now .. not onLY in SingApoRE i gue$$ .. PpL Frm place$ Like au$trLia pLay ti$ gAme tOo .. Ti$ Game$ i$ a Mu$ic kinD oF A GamE .. which MakE$ mii Like it $o muCh .. & oFco$ e ChaRActer$ DanCe moVE$ to0 !!! TheY hv COOL danCE movE$ .. Mu$ic .. moDe .. CLothe$ tOo .. Hahax .. i CaN PLay ti$ GamE FoR Hr$ without $topPinG .. Lol$ .. A reAL greAT GamE !!! =D

Havin' FuNn ..

. ' 10:16 AM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Waaa .. Lo0K at e DaY & tiME noW .. $oOn My LittLe bR0 ..mArmi .. poApoa .. cousin & mii ..wiLL be goiN 2 BAngKok Le .. HAhax .. 2 vi$it mY Ahh YeE .. hmm .. it'$ ju$ GrEat !!! Hahax .. Comin' BacK on Chri$t'max Eve .. HAhax .. 10 DaY$ LeHx .. wELL .. BUt $o0n i WiLL neEd 2 Go BacK 2 $cH Le .. 2 $tuDy .. $tuDy & moRE $tuDy .. HAix .. mix FeELLinG$ Lehx .. HAhax .. duno Happi .. $iaN oR wAt .. LOl$ .. Haix .. i tiNK mo$t i$ $iaNx Lahx .. co$ neEd 2 gO baCK 2 $tuDy moDE Le .. AHHhh doNwAn Lehx .. vERy tiREd & $tre$$FuL de Lehx .. LOL$ .. (=

HopE tat i CaN do WeLL in My $tuDie$ !!!!

GAmbARte CHOMELLE !!!! Add oiL .. ADD oiL .. hahas .. ^^

.Friday, December 8, 2006 ' 3:22 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

HAHAHHA ..YAy FinALy afT a LOng SeARCh .. i cAn watCH Hua YanG $haO niAN $hao Nv Le .. HEhes .. HappY !!! HappY !!! NICE~nice~ ^^ ELLa $o KAwAyi .. $tRonG .. hoPE i CaN bE LikE hER Lehx .. LOls.. =D

GamBArtE chomelle !!!! Yay !!!! HAhax ...

.Thursday, December 7, 2006 ' 3:10 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

La$t nite .. when i went 2 bed aft my $how .. i tried 2 $LEep buT cAnt .. thAn $uddEnLy i criED .. & sAid i m $cAreD .. $o ScAReD .. i hv mixED FEeLinG$ .. $cAreD & noT $caRed .. thAN i thinK .. $o0n i gtg BacK 2 $cH aReaDY .. $o Fa$t .. $ooN i wiLL bE .. '' out '' agaiN .. g0Na hv aLL e BaD fEeLinG$ comin' BacK .. $TRE$$ .. $TUDY .. SEC4 .. EXAM$ .. O LeveL$ .. thAn i sAt up Hugin my piLLOw .. i m noT gOoD in My $tudie$ HOW !!! HOW !!! HoLiDAy $o LonG i hv Lot$ of tiME 2 revi$e .. buT i caNT gEt my$ELf to !!! i m $caRED oF everytiNG .. no onE cAN heLP mii .. AHHH .. WaT'$ hAppEnin' 2 mii !? Y do i FEeL $o $cared .. $o LonELy .. $o .. un$ecurE .. $tre$$ .. Y do i Hv ti$ feELinG$ .. somEthiNG i$ g0iN 2 go wrONg .. thAn i TeLL my$eLf nono .. co0L d0Wn .. Mu$ be BrAVe .. Be $troNG .. Try yR be$T .. Euu Can do iT .. $Lowly i reLax .. lie doWN .. n fALL asLeeP ..

ThAn e Next Day ..

WhEn i ju$ BAth .. my Mum cAlled mii .. $ayin tat tml lunCH i gtg out wif my littLE cou$in 2 eAt .. i DonwAn i sAid .. thAn my mum told mii .. at fir$T my ahH yEe a$k her tml lunCh hoW? since her son Will Be At hoME wiTh mii .. Y noT A$k mii 2 Brm her son out 2 EaT lunCH .. thAn my MUm told Her .. i wont one .. than SaY i LAzy .. thaN la$t timE o$o beco$ my AhH yEe told mii sometin' tHAn 4whiLE i 4Got .. But tAt timE i m WAtchin tv mahx.. nv ConSentrAte .. tAt$ y 4gEt .. thAn sHE hAppEn 2 teLl my MUm .. tAt asK y i LikE tat .. thAn usin tis 2 thinG$ my Mum $ay mii .. y i $o lazY & latER 4whiLE 4 gEt thIng$ easily tOo .. ofco$ i keep quiet & Don kn Wat 2 $aY .. tHan i $tartED 2 CrY .. co$ Let my mum .. Ahh yEe $aY/$coLD .. ofCO$ i wiLL be $aD, kEep quiET .. co$ i m in E wrOng .. $o wAt cAn i $ay .. thAn my MUm AngRY .. $ay y i Nv An$wer .. & $aY happiLY tok 2 mii tHaN i Nv Tok .. tAt i Like Tat wiLL maKe ppL AngRy dE .. iF donWaN tok2 Her thAn put doWN e Phone .. Don tok .. thAn nExt time When tOK 2 mii $he LIkE tat o$o c i Like ANot .. oFco$ i Cry Even moRe .. WheN put Down e PhonE Le .. Waa CriEd Like MAd .. HAix .. But WaT eUu wAn mii 2 $aY ?! i let ahh YeE sAy mii Like Tat ofco$ will gEt SaD .. Embarrest mahX.. $o WAt eUu waN mii 2 $Ay ?! oRh reALLy ?? Haix.. $o i kn Y ytd niTE i m $o $cAred .. $o $aD .. $o uncomfortaBLE .. HAix.. sometiME$ .. i ReALLy hope .. i m noT Like Ti$ .. $o .. $o .. u$ele$$ .. EverYtin' $cArEd .. doNWaN 2 dO .. HaIX .. i oFCO$ hopE i m tho$e out GoiN one Lahx .. FULL Of conFidence .. BrAve .. INDEPENDENT .. oFco$ cAn bE hARD woRkin tOo .. $o taT mY $tuDie$ i caN hV no woRRie$ .. Haix .. $nOb .. $noB .. ~_~

- $aDDNe$$/U$eLE$$/depre$$/HeLPLe$$ .. GaL -

.Tuesday, December 5, 2006 ' 6:27 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

$omE of e NiCE pictuRE$ oF prince$$ houR$ ..

Prince$$ Hour$ ..

Ti$ i$ a very NicE .. $how .. Mixed wif different kind$ oF FeELing$/EmotioN$ .. LikE .. HAppi .. $ad .. AngRy .. Scared .. it make$ ppL wAn 2 FoLLOw e $how .. continue watCHin' it .. 2 kn waT Will hAppEn Next .. Some even Buy e vcd 2 wAtch Fir$t .. i hv oso heard tat many different RAce$ watch tis show .. Tat is ofco$ a GreAt thing!!! HAhax.. =D

. ' 4:13 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

adopt your own virtual pet!

. ' 3:20 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Mu$ic ..
i ReALLy likE ..
i ReALLy loVE ..
i ReaLLY Trea$ure ..
i ReallY Need ..
i reaLLY ..

I$ mu$ic e only thinG i ..
Need ..
LiKe ..
LovE ..
TReA$uRe..
????????????

TheRE i$ mu$ic everyWhere ..
In e woRLD ..
PLacE ..
Time ..
tv ..
radio ..
com$ ..
hou$e ..
In$tument$ ..
ThinG$ ..
PeoPLE ..
In e ..
HeArt ..
*********

CLa$$icAL Mu$ic ..
[ReLAx .. no $tre$$ .. HeArt]
R&B/$low Mu$ic ..
[Saddne$$ .. Lonely .. Heart BreAkin' ..HeARt]
RocK Mu$ic ..
[EnJOy .. FrEEDom .. OPen .. CareFree .. Relea$in' .. lettin' go .. attitude .. hEArt]
Group mu$ic ..
[ToGethErne$$ .. LoVe .. FAmiLY .. TeAm .. not LOnely .. Carin' heart]
POp/hip Hop mu$ic ..
[Movin' .. EnJoin' .. Shakin' .. Dancin' .. bouncin' .. Funn heART]
a Bit Fa$t R&B,Bouncin' mu$ic ..
[$mooth .. Happi go LUckY .. $kippin' .. Funn .. fuNnY HeArt]
$uDDen,ERieE music ..
[EviL .. CrEepy .. Lo$e MinD .. ShocK .. kEep in .. My$teriou$ .. HarD,Fa$t BeAttin' heArT]

Etc ..

Mu$ic can HeLP u$ .. TeAch u$ .. TeLL u$ .. OuR ..
ProBLem$ ..
FEeLin's ..
EmotiOn$ ..
LaNGugE$ ..
etc ..

Mu$ic i$ ..
SpeciAL ..
UniQuE ..
HeLpFuL ..
$wEEt ..
Mysteriou$ ..
CaLM ..
MeAninGfuL ..
KinD ..
FuNny ..
Co0L ..
nice ..

Ju$ Like a Per$on ..
A VarietY oF ..
a DiffEreNt Kind oF a Per$on ..

$ome may ju$ hv OnLY 1 kiNd$ oF mu$ic in ThEm ..
$oMe May Hv ALL .. HAhax..
Music ..
etc ..

. ' 2:19 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

LoOkin' At ti$ pictuRE .. it RemiNd$ mii oF .. ALL my new FrEn$ wHoM i knoW Frm a woRK$hop .. nicE knowin' Euu ALL!!! HAhax .. A$ ti$ nicE pictuRE hEre i$ doNE By one oF thEM .. IRI$ .. & it i$ S000 niCe !!! Hahax.. EvEry $inGLe thiNG i$ doNE bY Her$eLf .. LOls .. $o CLevER !!!
ThAnk$ iRi$ !!! =D
NiCe !!! NicE !!!